For some, life is bundled with too many trials, tribulations, obstacles that seem to swallow them whole and never spitting them out. For me, I consider those times “challenges” that appear to be insurmountable but I KNOW that in time it shall all pass.
I’ve had my share of disappointments, let-downs, hurts, grief, depression, despair, loneliness; emotional, financial, and physical pains. I’ve been through many nights of sleeplessness. I’ve had my fill of doubting this world worth living and waiting on my exit to come. I’ve been there. I know how it all feels because I lived it yesterday (in the past), I’m living it today (in the present), and more than likely will have bouts of living it tomorrow (in the future). These “trials”, these “tribulations”, these “obstacles” are nothing but CHALLENGES to make me a better me.
They are challenges that will remind me of a higher being much greater than myself, who will pull me from the trenches of feeling too weak to survive. They are challenges that will guide me through the storms of life and deliver me thru to the colorful sunshine of TRULY LIVING! As I sit here today and reminisce over the past few months that I’ve been existing, I entertain thoughts of doubt concerning situations in my life. I write because speaking is too painful. I write because reading my thoughts bring me back to reality that life still goes on and I must get up and fight another fight knowing that the battle is mine to win with my Lord’s help. I may have challenges of all of the above but one thing is for sure…I WON’T COMPLAIN!
Though my mother and father are no longer with me in the physical, they left me an emotion of past childhood. I can hear songs my mother used to play on the record player that apparently got her through some “challenging” times in her own life. I find them to be of solace to me now. One song in particular is ‘I Won’t Complain’ by Reverend Paul Jones. Some of the lyrics are…“I’ve had some good days. I’ve had some hills to climb. I’ve had some weary days and some lonely nights. But when I look around, and I think things over, all of my good days outweigh my bad days. I WON’T COMPLAIN!”
My hope is that, while you’re reading this, you find a measurement of solace in whatever CHALLENGES you are facing. My hope is that although those challenges will come, you will remember your own good days and “WON’T COMPLAIN”. Remember that just because you are speaking or writing of your journey through this maze called life, it does not mean you are complaining. It simply means that you are measuring your past and your present and are finding that “all of your good days outweigh your bad days and you WON’T COMPLAIN!”
May peace be with you!
With Prepared Love, Carol D. Ward
